revmusings

It's one of those times in life when I reflecting on who I am: what do I believe, what are my strengths and weaknesses, what have I done with my life to date?

This is a difficult process, for me at least. I wish I could see myself from the outside, see what others see - it always amazes me when people say positive things about me that I just don't see. But then again I might also see all the things people hate about me and I may not survive the revelations so maybe I will be better staying ignorant!

What I have done is fairly easy, separating what God did despite me and what I helped with is more difficult! Strengths and weakness is a bit easier: I am awful at organisation, typing, gammar, and singing - I get lost easily and am prone to being a bit black and lack self-confidence. Positively I am a people person, I can get alongside all ages, am quite creative, I love teaching and helping people mature in faith and gifts and am a good team player. I also tend to get passionate about issues which can be both positive and negative as I can get a bit bull in a china shopish!

The thing I find hardest is where I stand theologically because it all depends on where the other person is standing! I am orthodox enough to be accepted by all as a Christian but to some I am too conservative, to others too liberal. I am not where I was a few years ago and no doubt will be in a different place in the future but I suspect 'I am on a journey' is not acceptable!

And in the end who I am in God is the most important and I am still working on that one!